So, i have lost 15 lbs on my journey so far! I am down to 190! This also means than I am about 5 pounds away from leaving obesity for the last time in my life. I will never let this come back this time. You probably are thinking, well, that has been what i said over and over and over again.
I am done with yoyo-ing and am i a journey to health and happiness. Not thin and happiness. This time it is not about getting the boy or just fitting into the jeans i could never wear (although it is nice to be able to consider those for once!) This is about learning to not look at food as I have, as an addictive substance. This is about letting myself live everyday and not killing myself with calories. I have support from people i though never cared, and see humanity in the world once again.
I honestly had been looking at everyone as a horrible selfish person, and blamed everyone for my own mistakes and anger. NO MORE (well, working on it anyways) I want to live life with optimism and a healthy body to do things i love, like soccer. I am 190lbs and have 35 lbs left to go to my first and main goal. : )
Today i leave for school with happiness.
ill update after the day.
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