Today, after school I decided to give another OA meeting a try. AT first the meeting seemed to much veered towards god and prayer and I wasn't feeling like I would be coming back, figuring i would be doing everything on my won. The meeting opened with a moment of silence, then a reading for the 12 step book, and ending with one of the attendees speak of her experiences. As people began saying their goodbyes and gathering their things, one of the women began to speak with me, and being a newcomer she got me some documents i could look over. A few people asked me some questions about where i was from, and basic introduction curiosities until there were only a few left. With a bit of a tear in my eye, a woman kindly held my hand and asked "would you like to sit, talk a moment?" in tears i was able to slowly express my pain, expecting words of fixing, i happily got three wonderful women listening, and understanding. They were believing my feelings and supporting me awareness of needing help. They were not trying to fix me, they were actually listening. After the women gave me their numbers, and i gave them mine if any of us needed someone to speak to for any reason. These women have made me feel like i have a living chance to be happy again. I think this may actually be possible. There are good people in this world.
I bought a new scale, and tested it with a weight to make sure I had something accurate. I have made it back under 200lbs! lets keep this up!
Good job on getting under 200 already!!! I'm so glad you met some nice people at the meeting, too. We're all in this together girl...and we'll get there! :)
ReplyDeleteThank you. I was a little surprised at getting under 200 so quickly, I assumed that maybe it was from all of the holidays. It has still been very mentally stressful so far, but i have high hopes! Thanks for being the first to support me here, it means a lot. : )
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