Filled with courage I spent the the day with strength and happiness. The morning began with two of the women from last night called me to check in on me and make sure I was holding on to my self. Having someone go out of their way to help a practical stranger makes me feel so much more positive and thankful that there is hope.
Starting my morning I kept in my mind, " Just get through today, do not worry about tomorrow. Today is what is important."
In the past I have always planned my weeks, or even months. I would say, be here by the end of this month. Or don't eat and bagels this week. However, one fall and the whole plan was ruined. Keeping my mind set on the present, and being honest with myself for the day I am in makes everything feel so much easier.
My day went well, except for a second miss happening with a OA meeting i tried to attend. Because of the snow the meeting was unattended, except for me of course. But a single newcomer in an empty room is not quite supportive. After a stressful moment of anger and tears I made a call to one of the women who reached out to me in the morning. She gave me a short but inspiring talk on keeping hope and taking the negative and treating it as a positive.
The night was hard and i overate some cheese and crackers i did not need, but it is also making me more aware of my trigger foods. As part of the traditions, here is a list of my trigger foods:
Bagels (especially with cream cheese)
Muffins
Bread
Cheese and crackers
Ice Cream (especially Ben and Jerry's)
Cake
Pie
Chocolate
Potatoes
Cereal
Pasta
Brownies
Beer
Mexican food (Burritos and/or chips and salsa)
On a good note:
Today's Weight" 196.5lbs
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